Madlodies♫

//Wednesday, January 28, 2009 5:37 AM

等下一個天亮

(就象那架飞机一样, 那个人也被风带走了...)

用起伏的背影擋住哭泣的心
有些故事不必說給每個人聽
許多眼睛看的太淺太近
錯過我沒被看見那個自己

用簡單的言語解開超載的心
有些情緒是該說給懂的人聽
你的熱淚比我激動憐惜
我發誓要更努力更有勇氣

等下一個天亮去上次牽手賞花那裡散步好嗎
有些積雪會自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁達的天堂

等下一個天亮把偷拍我看海的照片送我好嗎
我喜歡我飛舞的頭髮
和飄著雨還是眺望的眼光

(I took some time to record this song, but the quality wasn't as good...still it's great for blogging material haha yeah waiting for 下一個天亮..the sun is going to come out soon! enjoy ba!;)

//Friday, January 23, 2009 4:54 AM

Cherish

I went to see his urn on Wednesday. I brought along white flowers for him because white was his favourite colour. When I saw his family, they were really nice towards me especially his sister. She was really sweet and kind. When I arrived, she even wanted to pay for my cabfare. When I got down and saw her, her eyes look like her brother and I could find some resemblance of Alvin in the way she talks. Even though I could see that she misses her brother alot, she is being positive and try to be as cheerful as she can, because she understands that Alvin will not want her to be too upset. I am really glad to have the chance to spend some time and talked with his family. His sister shared so much about him, how they often fought when they were younger, his character, his personality and how proud she is of her brother.

When she brought me to his urn, she gently touched his photo and told him " 文聪, 你的朋友来看你了..." I nearly wanted to tear when I heard that. She was so nice to let me spend a few moments alone there. I said a little prayer and then make sure the flowers was nicely placed beside but I did not want to leave yet, so I stayed for a while more.

Well for these few days, I cannot quite understand why am I so sad and so much affected by the whole matter. Although Alvin was not really of a close friend to me but the feeling of having lost something precious was very strong actually. I kind of regretted that I did not dial his number earlier so I could at least get to see him in the last moments of his life. I felt very upset that I did not took the chance to tell him how great I think he was and how thankful I am to him for always making me feel confident and pretty. I wonder if he knows that we all miss him very much. Where could he be now? Is he good?.....

I always know in the back of my mind that in life no matter how busy we get, we must always put aside everything and spend time with the ones we loved dearly. We must cherish the people around us, our family, friends, colleagues, or even those whom we are not so close to.. to remember to always tell them how valuable and precious they are, and how much we love them through our actions. Now I am still learning how to do this with my whole heart not just with only my mind. I am learning how not to let time passed me by each day without doing something for someone or saying something nice to a person. And at the end of the day, having all said and done, life is really not how much we get but how much we have given to others.....

//Wednesday, January 21, 2009 1:24 AM

Gone too soon....

I was very shocked to hear that. Right at the moment when I saw the sms, I did not want to believe that it was true. But then the second sms came, his sister explained to me about all that had happened. “He kept losing weight and we asked him to quit his job and rest at home, he did eventually but he was very stubborn and refused to see the doctor. He fainted one day at home and just leave us like that.” I cannot help but felt a sudden surge of grief and sadness. I stood still in silence. I told myself that I should accept the fact that he was already gone.

Very few of the hairstylist I have ever went to in my entire life, did actually made me feel assured and confident when I step out of the salon. But this guy, he was just different. He made me look beautiful every time. More than that, he was like a friend to me. He was very gentle, very professional, very friendly. He always talked to me like he was talking to his little sister because he would tried his best to have me understand every step he was working on my hair. I always felt comfortable and confident to let him cut my hair. He told me that girls should keep their crown area light and fluffy, no straight line parting because that will look very 老气. He knew his colour theory very well. He mixed and matched the dye which suits me perfectly and he definitely knew how to washes and blows your hair to the very standard you could ever asked for. His wonderful skills at layering was simply incredible… He was very detailed and was able to control the thickness and volume of your hair so that every strand sits perfectly on your head. He got a bag, inside contains a row full of scissors which he always tucked it handsomely at his waist. He said that these scissors were his life and a pair of it cost up to 500 bucks. He taught me how should I part my hair so I will look like those Japanese girls in the magazines. And there was once when he suggested I should cut bob for a fresh look but I kept wanting to have long hair. Later then, I remembered he did curls for me. He encouraged and convinced me that I will look great instead though I was really unsure. He said “Alright, why not I do it for you today and I will not charge you a single cent but you cannot tell your friend ok?” And the next thing I knew was that I actually loved the results…He was one such guy who created magic, not only for me but for many other people too.

He wanted me to help him create a personal portfolio website. He had so many photographs, like a stack of it. He liked red, white and black and he loved designs which are sleek and simple. He liked to go to Japan where he will also visit his sister over there. He took time and shared with me about how great he thinks that Japanese are, their work ethics and philosophy in life which we should really learn from them.

One thing I really like about him was whenever he finished a specific cut on my hair, he would always used his fingers to gently brushes the locks around so as to ensure that the cut gave a great shape to my face. Every time when he did this, he looked amazingly charming and really dashing…

It has been nearly 3 years since anyone cut my hair except him. It was so sad to see him getting thinner and lost so much weight when I saw him the last time. He became quieter and seems distracted, I knew something must be bothering him. Now I know that it must be the pain that he was trying to put up with, it must have not been easy for him.

I should have told him that he was the greatest hairstylist I have ever met. Sometimes I do take a sneak peek at him whenever I passed by Wisma Icon but I cannot do this anymore. My hair is very long now because since August I have been waiting for Alvin to come back and cut my hair, however he is no longer with us, it's just not possible anymore …

Goodbye Alvin, we all will miss you very much....

//Thursday, January 8, 2009 5:47 PM

烏拉博士

Do you still remember when you were younger, you used to ask alot of questions? Why sometimes the moon is round while other times it's cresent? Mummy where do I come from? Why is the sky so blue? Why is Papa's stomach always so big? I remember during my childhood days, my mind was always filled with lots of "why" and I cannot stop irritating my sisters, my mum and friends with questions that I can never seem to stop asking..haha

Then came my favourite show with this really cute friend..... 烏拉博士!

And I love the song! Was it familiar to you too? Haha....

為什麼為什麼為什麼

為什麼天空會有雲

為什麼飛機會飛行

為什麼月亮有時圓有時又不圓

烏拉博士來說明

十萬個為什麼告訴你

（十萬個為什麼）

為什麼為什麼為什麼

為什麼孔雀會開屏

為什麼螃蟹要橫行

為什麼海水有時低有時又變高

烏拉博士來說明

十萬個為什麼告訴你

（十萬個為什麼）

為什麼為什麼為什麼

歡迎小小朋友作貴賓

可愛動物陪伴你

//Friday, January 2, 2009 12:59 AM

N122 Thanksgiving 2008

Thank You guys so much for being part of my life....LOVE you all!!!